Last day at ASML (Old Draft, Released!)

Last Friday was my last day at ASML as I'm going to leave Netherlands soon. To describe my feelings, it was kind of mixed. I'm happy as I'm going to be closer to my sister and my mother, however there was sad feeling as I will leave the people that I worked with in the last 1 year. The last day was just as the same as another day except thatI have to complete all the leaving checklist and get the signature & stamp from several people. I got a very precious gift from my team, a thing that I actually wanted to buy before I left NL, Netherland's football team jersey!

Next Path (Old Draft Finally Released :D )

/* This was written last year (2010) when confusion came around my head */

I never expected to have a difficult moment to choose the next path in my life. It was stressful, confusing and absorbed so much energy. The trade offs among the options that I had were extreme and mutually exclusive. But I am glad that I've passed that moment that I chose a path. I'm confident and ready to endure for everything that I will undergo. The choice that I picked, I should say, was not popular. I think if 10 people were asked about this, perhaps only 2 people will choose the same path as I am. It's like me against the world.

I may lose something but I will get something else. I keep saying to myself, I need to take few steps back to make a longer jump.

Patch goes beta

I've just got a news from the field that my beta patch already installed in GlobalFoundries, Dresden. So far they're quite delighted about the performance as the existing errors are gone now. Hope that everything will go allright (fingers crossed). Well, that's the only satisfaction that I can get as a software engineer, to have your software used by the big clients and it works fine.

Surrender

Sometimes our dream doesn't get along with the reality. Sometimes sacrifices have to be made for the sake of others. Sometimes we have to endure from something that we don't like. Sometimes we have to make a hard decision within an obscure circumstances. Sometimes we pray and we just don't get enlightment. Sometimes we walk in the middle of the dark tunnel and cannot see the end of it. Sometimes the universe forced us to stay although we want to leave. Sometimes we just give in. Sometimes we just give in. Sometimes we just give in. Sometimes we surrender.